So this blog is number 100. It’s crazy to think that just under a year ago, I started this blog sad, insecure and unsure of everything and everyone. However now, I am happier, stronger and more sure of myself then I have ever been. Thank you Lord.
Today I wanna talk about weddings. I was always that little girl who dreamed of my wedding, the big dress, the church, the fancy party afterwards, horses and princess tiaras…having now been to a handful of weddings I am not so sure. People spend a lot of money on weddings, and while they are fun and beautiful and I am so happy for all my friends and family who get married and have amazing weddings, it seems like a lot of effort for one day. I kinda wanna fly to Vegas and elope. Not that I am thinking of marrying anytime soon, but really…I don’t feel the same way about marriage that I did a couple of years ago.
I am sure part of my thinking is to do with the dashed dreams I experienced with the ex, but really I am just a very different person now. No high expectations, high hopes. But this doesn’t mean that I still don’t want marriage, I just want marriage only, wedding optional. Last night I went to my buddy T’s wedding and it was great, he looked good, his bride was beautiful and everyone had fun. But the whole day went by so freaking quickly. I cannot imagine spending that much moolah on a day that goes by quicker then a snap of the fingers. Sigh, we will see…I still have quite some time before I get married.
Today, the day after the wedding, I am lying in bed, watching tv and eating ice cream – well Sorbet – and it’s fantastic. I really enjoy doing nothing sometimes because so often I always have to be doing something. I am watching Knocked Up – where the hot entertainment director gets pregnant from the ugly stoner loser and … in the end she has the baby and all works out in the end. It’s such a funny movie, even after seeing it for the fifth or sixth time. This week is going to be a busy week, between the Interview event with PAYE, my normal work stuff, Sign Language 2 class, dinner with dream guy and trying to fit in NK time, I am wondering when things will slow down or get more exciting…hmmm we’ll see…lol.
Have a great week