So yesterday (Valentines Day) was a normal, yet happy day for me. Work was good, no major troubles, lots of texting, which I know is so wrong, but I CAN NOT HELP IT. I just can’t stop yet so I hope none of my co-workers hate me for it!?
After work I had therapy, which was intense and made me do a lot of thinking. I need to start taking control of my life and my future, but really, I am in limbo right now and I plan on going nowhere soon so I will just have to deal with my rollercoaster of emotions until a move is made! My Valentines date was with one of my absolute favourite people in the world – crazy cat lady! LOL…she will kill me is she reads this and finds out I call her that…shhh don’t tell. I spent part of my evening with her and her dad just relaxing, teasing each other (if we were American he would be VERY republican and I would be VERY democratic so I try not to debate him…it could get ugly). Watching crazy cat lady with her dad reminds me of the relationship I have with my dad. He raised her, mine raised me. Though in reality – we took/take care of them!
After leaving her house, I headed to the finale of my Valentines date night with my dad. We watched part of Biggest Loser, but I knew I had one more thing I had to do. I called my mom. My mom is going through a really rough time right now. Her boyfriend has throat cancer and so far – it does not look good. I am debating about going up to Bobcaygeon to help out for a couple of days. Even just to be there to keep them company. Now my relationship with both of them has been strained, never a solid, great relationship by any means, but I do love my mother and I don’t like people I care about hurting. I also tend to not be the most compassionate person with her, as I am more concerned that when he does pass away that she is taken care of…that things are in order. She assures me they are. I hope so. We had a really nice talk though. Probably the longest one we have had in months, if not years.
After showering and talking to GBF (totally teased him for not buying me flowers this year – I mean last year he did…remember my blog on it!! We were in a crap place last year, I hated so much of him and he bought me flowers! This year we are friends, we are in a much better place, and I get nothing! LOL…next year if I am single I will pick a fight with him to ensure I get something!) I passed out cold…only to be woken up by a crazy nightmare where I was in some foreign country and working in a brothel – not as the woman who sleeps with people, but as security (ya who the hell am I supposed to secure???)…and people were getting killed and raped and I have no idea what brought on such foolishness, but it kept me awake wishing I could call…nah I won’t say…but I did wanna call someone and calm myself down. Why do my dreams have to be so freaking real??? Ridiculous!
All in all, today should hopefully be a wonderful day. See if my plans stick, see if work goes well – see what client’s bring me today…have a wonderful hump day everyone