So yesterday was a crazy day – work has been insane lately and at times I feel like my hair is going to fall out (or I’ll pull it out, either way), but I am good, because I love what I do. Shockingly with no sugar or carbs this week, I have survived. I have not thrown tantrums or fits that would leave the Real Housewives envious. I have been focused and strong.
Today is day 5 of this 5 day experiment of self-control. I am not going to lie – I have felt hungry, but not starving. I have felt dizzy, but never fainted. I have not thrown up or punched anyone. I am a hero.
Actually Agi is a hero. She has brought me every meal, supported, encouraged and talked me through every day. I am so blessed to have amazing friends.
Tomorrow though, tomorrow I am eating bread. Don’t worry I am not going to go bat shit crazy and eat sugar on bread (though thanks mom for the idea) but I am going to start incorporating healthy breads and sugar back into my diet – cause this has felt extreme and as I said the other day – I can’t live extremes.
This week-long journey is over!
I can’t believe I am halfway through this crazy week and although I am hungry, I am not starving, I do not want to punch people who are eating cookies (lady beside me in my meeting today – cruel and unusual punishment should be set upon you for eating TWO cookies that smelled like heaven would smell).
I am learning, as I go along – I don’t need three teas throughout the day – not with three sugar each at least. I can have one tea – first thing in the morning…my comfort drink, the one that gives me a reason to want to roll out of bed at 6 or 7 am.
I don’t need bread at every meal. Well…..okay no I definitely don’t NEED bread at every meal, having it at lunch OR dinner is okay. If I want to have a sandwich at lunch, then I can have a protein packed dinner with veggies, which really isn’t going to kill me.
Having one sugary snack a day is okay. Having one healthy a snack a day is okay. Balance. I tend to live my life in extremes…right now I am extremely not eating anything fun…lol…but usually I eat all fun stuff and none of the healthy stuff. Why do I do this? I have no idea. It’s foolish and irresponsible not only for me, but those whose lives will be affected by me being unhealthy (and a tad bit crazy – though I tend not to love the phrase “crazy”).
So this has been a great experiment. I have proven to myself (so far – I have 2.5 days left) that I can do this.