Day 5, I know no day 4…

So yesterday was a crazy day – work has been insane lately and at times I feel like my hair is going to fall out (or I’ll pull it out, either way), but I am good, because I love what I do.  Shockingly with no sugar or carbs this week, I have survived.  I have not thrown tantrums or fits that would leave the Real Housewives envious.  I have been focused and strong.

Today is day 5 of this 5 day experiment of self-control.  I am not going to lie – I have felt hungry, but not starving.  I have felt dizzy, but never fainted.  I have not thrown up or punched anyone.  I am a hero.

Actually Agi is a hero.  She has brought me every meal, supported, encouraged and talked me through every day.  I am so blessed to have amazing friends.

Tomorrow though, tomorrow I am eating bread.  Don’t worry I am not going to go bat shit crazy and eat sugar on bread (though thanks mom for the idea) but I am going to start incorporating healthy breads and sugar back into my diet – cause this has felt extreme and as I said the other day – I can’t live extremes.

This week-long journey is over!

XOXO Nikilee

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Top 5 things I thought about while stuck in traffic

I am really liking the Top 5 list.  So here is another one.  To set the scene: this morning, mother nature vomited snow all over Toronto.  And not just snow, but rain, ice and wind.  This is the first real snow Toronto has seen this season.  I shouldn’t complain, I am well aware of this, but I whine a lot about a lot of things, so I am. It took me over 1.5 hours to get to work – normally takes 20 -30 minutes MAX!  At one point I sat on the highway off ramp for 40 minutes and in that 40 minutes I had a lot of time to think and pray because there is only so much radio one person can listen to and I own no good CD’s. 

I did not take this picture - relax, I googled it!

1. Why doesn’t Toronto make it mandatory for everyone to buy winter tires?  I mean, I didn’t slip or slide once today and there was people slipping and sliding all over the place like their car was wearing ice skates.  What an image.  I wonder if there would be a drop in accidents if it were mandatory??

2. I wish Roz and Mocha on kiss 92.5 would have more talk radio.  I mean they are funny!  I love their radio show, but they play way to much music that I can hear on other radio stations.  I want to hear their friendly/unfriendly banter.  And Maurie!  I love Maurie!  Please Roz and Mocha, talk more, play less music!

3. I can’t fast with food today.  I need to eat!  Blueberry bagel, here I come!  I need you, crave you and if I had just gotten to work before 8:30 I might have been able to resist your sweet aroma, but unfortunately I am stuck in traffic smelling you and now you must be eaten – fasting for today is NO SMOKING!  Let me tell you, if I had a cigarette in my car, she would have been smoked.  However I wouldn’t have needed the bagel then and been able to keep my fast.  However I would have smoked and broke my promise to myself and my health…I was screwed either way.  So I ate, but I apologized to God first.  And let me tell you, blueberry bagels, lightly toasted with butter is AWESOME!

4. I hope for my mother’s sake her boyfriend ends up okay.  Biker dude has throat cancer.  He had to get some wire mesh thing put in his throat so he can eat and if it takes he can do chemo and should hopefully live another year or more.  If it doesn’t take…well lets just say it won’t be good.  My mom has had a rough go the past 10+ years and as much as it is her own doing and consequences of choices she has made, I love my mother and she wants biker dude to get through this so I do too.  I added him to my prayer list this week.

5. Finally, why do I work at an office so far away when there is an office with a couple of my favourite ladies at it just 5 minutes away?  Why??  I don’t know.  I love being in the Employment Centre, I don’t want to be back on a caseload.  I have made a couple of really good friends here who I would be devastated to lose touch with and the SDP’s are great!  So as much as I HATE the drive in the winter, I have to suck it up buttercup and keep going because I have made the choice to stay here for at least a year.  I’m just glad my ladies from the other office love me enough to see me outside of work!

And that’s it folks.  These are the things I thought about while sitting in snow, rain, ice, wind and traffic.  I hope you have all had a great day *said quite sarcastically*

XOXO Nikilee

It’s all over for another year

Last night, my brother and his wife had a wake to go to so me and dad had their kids to watch.  Since it was also my birthday my dad ordered Swiss Chalet.  Before the kids could eat though he made them earn their dinner!

The Christmas tree was taken down, the decorations stored away for next year and the lights placed (not so delicately) in a bag by my larger than life 15-year-old nephew.  My nieces were a great help cleaning up and making sure all the hooks were placed in a container.  One thing I hate is when I go to put up the tree and I cannot find any hooks!  They earned their food for the night!  (please don’t call Childrens Services we would have fed them regardless – promise)!!!!

So the tree is down, and for some reason, after 30 Christmas’s at home, it still amazes me how much larger our living room looks after that tree is put away!  I mean our living room is average size, but when the tree is up – it’s squishy and claustrophobic!  But now – with the window being cleaned (there was lots of snowmen and snowflakes stuck to it for the past 6 weeks) I can freely walk around again without bumping an ornament off!

On a high note – I have a stress ball!  I have quit smoking as of December 23rd and my co-worker Ms. Maggie gave me a stress ball – and it’s pink and has a smily face!  What I love doing – squashing that smily face as I go through a nicotine craving!  Yep I do!  But I love it and will keep it on my desk as a reminder oh how well I am doing.

 

This morning I am fasting.  My church supposedly does this once every quarter.  To learn more please google Global Kingdom Ministries OR just come visit us Sunday Morning at Markham Rd and Progress in Scarborough.  We are south of the McDonald’s.  I am fasting this morning for healing/health.  Myself, some family and friends of mine need healing or better health.  So this morning I prayed for healing of me and others.  I will continue praying today for healing.  Tomorrow I will be praying for safety – safety at work, at home and in the community.  I cannot eat until noon today (I am working so I need enough energy to get me through a day) so if you know whats good for you – don’t ask me to do anything strenuous for until I have food in my belly!

Question: what do you do to relieve stress?

XOXO Nikilee